Channeling your inner Moses

Do you ever feel inadequate? Maybe the thought of not feeling like enough crosses your mind from time-to-time. Or maybe you get instantly nervous, clammy or have a quick need to pee when you find yourself having to speak in front of others.

Do I have a story for you, strait out of His Word! But first, I’m going to share a little about me before we channel our inner Moses.

When I was in High School, I volunteered to emcee one of our events. I went to a really different kind of school (which I briefly touch on here). It was a pretty conservative academy, and because of that we didn’t have school dances. We did, however, have banquets. Four per year to be exact – and in the fall it was always a fun theme.

Valentine’s in Paris theme my junior year

My sophomore year the event committee planned a Hollywood Nights theme banquet, and I thought…whoa, wouldn’t it be fun to host Singled Out, VGA-Style? (VGA = Valley Grande Academy). Since none of our teachers knew what that was, and my co-host and I had to plan out all the questions in advance to get screened, they let us have it.

The only proof I could find of my horrible wig

And so began my obsession with being famous. The event was a huge hit (despite my attempt at being a plus size Jenny McCarthy with a 90’s blonde wig and patent leather boots) and we even did it again my junior year. I also volunteered for every open spot to emcee events, be in plays and even sing…and, guys, I am not blessed with being able to sing. I frankly sound like a dog in heat, but I do love to belt out a good number.

Okay, so maybe the dream for fame came much earlier

Fast forward to college. I was not in the best place and had been in a marriage that scarred me. Violence, drugs and cheating made me slink into a whole other person. But, I wanted to catch a glimmer of myself so I joined the university program board and became an event chair. Every time I had to get on a mic in front of everyone I got so nervous. I felt sick to my stomach, inadequate and like someone could do it better than I could. But I pushed through and got in front of an audience.

The day my ex decided to walk out the door he decided to tell me while I was getting ready (like, curling iron in hand) for an awards dinner where I would be honored. Yup, he was that guy. I cried, oh did I cry. But I pulled myself together and made that speech. And I did it well because no one knew I was suffering.

I share all this because even though I am healed of those scars, I still cannot bring myself to speak in front of others, and it is worse than it ever was. There have been situations at work or volunteering where I needed to present, and I just fail miserably in the confidence department. I even emceed a dog event just a few years ago and I was desperate to get out of there….and my audience was dogs!

Apparently I like performing for dogs

But God has other plans….I (we) just need to let him. Check this out (the punch line….):

Exodus 4:10-12 CSB

But Moses replied to the Lord, “Please, Lord, I have never been eloquent ​— ​either in the past or recently or since you have been speaking to your servant ​— ​because my mouth and my tongue are sluggish.” The Lord said to him, “Who placed a mouth on humans? Who makes a person mute or deaf, seeing or blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go! I will help you speak and I will teach you what to say.”

Now go! I will help you speak and I will teach you what to say - Exodus 4:12 | amerytina.com

Guys….He will help us speak. He will teach us what to say! I can do this. You can too. My story is a little backwards, but I can totally relate to Moses here. So, I’m going to get out there and find a place to speak this year. How will you overcome your fear?

 

 

Channeling your inner Moses and how you can overcome fear just like him | amerytina.com

14 thoughts on “Channeling your inner Moses

  1. I can totally relate! I’m not at all comfortable with public speaking but when I’m talking about scripture and pray for God to just use me it seems to be much better. It’s definitely got to be a tool for Gods glory though, that’s why God gave Moses the words, so God could use him not for Moses’ glory. That’s something I always have to keep in mind too so I don’t get too focused on myself.

    1. Absolutely! There are so many hidden gems like this in the Bible – written just for us, to give us strength so we may glorify God. Thanks so much for stopping by & commenting!

  2. Such great content here! God can help us overcome any fear. The personable examples made this post. Thank you for being willing to open up and share!

    1. Thank you, Lisa! It’s funny because I had a hard time deciding to publish and my loving husband encouraged me because it may help someone. Abuse is an ugly demon, but God can heal anything. Thanks for your comment!

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